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Thursday, August 4th, 2005

Time:12:02 pm.
susie 202. hit it up style when you get to oru and hang out with me and my bf and the roommate I have no idea who she is.
apartment stuff is going well.
katie is about to start her REAL TEACHING JOB. how fun is that.
i've seen too many people who are judging others lately, and it kind of makes me scared to go back to school.
you know what I've decided though? no matter what happens, I'll still be me. and people can take that or leave that.
and the thing about my friendships is that I will do my best to keep them but if someone else isn't trying I can discard it.
sounds mean, I know, but that's how it goes.
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Tuesday, July 26th, 2005

Subject:chair of the year
Time:2:34 am.
things you need to know:

-i'm over false friendships
-i'm becoming way, WAY more private lately
-i think i'm in love

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Thursday, February 17th, 2005

Time:2:37 am.
chris is lame
life is good
I saw scott
I love tabitha
some of my friends are annoying me
andy said, "I can't do that xanga, that damn myspace whatever it's pissing me off"
so he basically made me laugh this morning.
melinda, jeremy and I are going up to the emery show on saturday and staying at kate's.
a grip of other folk will be there
including the wonderful jenna, laura, seb, josh, alan, von, mary, dean, riki, etc.
I have a crush
I am happy
I need a haircut
I need to figure out who to get an apartment with this summer, because everyone is asking me to get it with them.
vickery said we should take a field trip to california so I can show him places where you can sift for gold.
I'm in an odd mood lately.
go bananas is taking the country by storm.
nick gave me some drum sticks.
weezer is awesome.
I miss mike dorval. a lot.
and I miss my valentine. ha. he is awesome.
that's pretty much it.
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004

Subject:making a simple lane change
Time:7:45 pm.
I hope you know how much you're missing by not being my friend.

and that's not cryptic...it just means I have private entries.

and it also means that the xanga subscribers get to read a lot more of my life now, thanks to chris/kyle/tulsa people that got me back into xanga land.

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Friday, December 10th, 2004

Time:10:41 pm.
going to my party NOW!!!


come come come come come.

its foggy. and I love home.
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Saturday, December 4th, 2004

Time:1:50 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
weezer is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

listening to some strung out. and other randomness. feeling good. studying for my final. and maybe working today. just 4 more tests and a clean room will get me home and away from this semester. the suckiest (school-wise) semester so far. blah. but new beginnings are great.
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Monday, October 25th, 2004

Time:12:39 pm.
I've been keeping you up half the night.
and I love it.

I think I'm starting to finally care about something. and someone. and life is looking good.
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Monday, October 18th, 2004

Time:11:16 am.
we're fast and slow.
breakfast was good.
i like a guy. yay.
aren't you jealous?
i hate how whenever i like someone 50 other guys try to ask me on a date. and then when I'm over it, no one wants to take me out. ick. lame.
jonna is going sxe. hahaha. how long that will last....placing bets now.
i'm glad everyone is back from fall break, i missed them all.
getting paid in two days is nice.
;aslkgdklfhg i can't wait to start waiting tables.
staff meeting last night was lame. oh well.
rod is here. so is von.
christian came and left. it was amazing. i wish he would stay forever.

when i think of the new guy, though, i smile. immensely.
i wish people weren't so controlling over my life. or trying to make my decisions for me. i guess it just shows that they care...hmmm...
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Monday, October 11th, 2004

Time:11:10 am.
show was good.
flight got cancelled.
hung out in okc.
had fun.
not too much fun, just basic hanging out fun.
i love those people.
chris' sister doesn't hate me contrary to popular belief/opinion
uh...it's raining
that makes me sad
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Sunday, September 26th, 2004

Time:4:29 pm.
it's still not who you think it is.

hey, so I got a job. it's way fun. the people I work with are great. I love it. and life is great, grand and wonderful so that's always a plus. <3
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Thursday, September 9th, 2004

Time:1:05 pm.
I like a boy. the end. and I PROMISE you it's not who you think it is.
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004

Subject:okay, check this out
Time:8:02 pm.
this is definitely a vent post.
I can't really explain how I feel about this right now. it just sucks to lose a friend, and I'm not good at doing it. I want to keep my friends but sometimes I just suck and I get mad and I don't know what to do anymore. and that's where I'm at right now. so confused about what is going on. but in another way I'm just over it. I can't think about it too much because it just makes me sad. oh well. I can't really express how I feel about this situation right now, so I won't even try. maybe later.
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Wednesday, August 11th, 2004

Subject:so take take everything
Time:8:53 am.
Mood: busy.
better update is going to come later, I promise. for now, I flew back to tulsa. I am slowly unpacking and I met a lot of people...uh and I am super busy. I passed my OT exam, NO PROBLEM. off to do yearbook stuff.
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Sunday, August 8th, 2004

Subject:so beautiful, beautiful
Time:5:58 pm.
Mood: busy.
oh man. these past few days and nights have been crazy as my summer is winding down. I leave for tulsa tomorrow morning, and there are for sure going to be some sparks flying tonight. but, I will recap.

friday. a ton of people came over. we had a little party, played some games, hung out. good times. garrett explained some things to me on the phone that really made me think, but I feel like we have finally come to a place of understanding on both of our parts. which is good. no hard feelings, lots of love, and things could not be better between us. as friends. which is what I wanted all along. life is good.

friday during the day I went to modesto and fresno. bought a purse, some makeup, another shawl, and I looked at shoes forever with my mom. it was a good time. and I got my sam's club card renewed, so that was cool.

anyway, after everyone left on friday night I talked to lindsay on the phone for a little bit, and I talked to josh online for a little bit. I tried to solve the problem of what apparently happened the night before in davis between kristen and isaac, but kristen ended up crying and getting a little crazy. so I kinda just talked to isaac about it and I think everything is better.

yesterday I woke up early and took my brother to work so that I could borrow his car. I ran some random errands and had a good time. I also did a ton of laundry. then I got ready for justin's funeral and took off to the high school gym.

the news was there. and so were a gazillion people. it was kind of like a high school reunion, only much much sadder. I cried for the first hour of the service. the second hour was about remembering justin, so I laughed a lot more, especially when loren spoke, since loren was justin's first friend in los banos and we all went to elementary school together. it was really nice. afterward, I didn't really stay and talk to anyone because I didn't feel like it would be appropriate to sit and catch up with everyone, and plus I needed to pack. so I'm at home packing and doing laundry when genesa comes by. what a breath of fresh air. I missed her. kyle came by too. we chatted it up for about 4 hours, watched the x games, ate, and just hung out. genesa was telling me about berkeley and how her newly acquired hippie habits. they left at about 8:45, and then christian called. he said he wanted to come over but that he didn't think he would have time to make it all the way over here. but while we were talking, jv came by. so jv and I sat around and listened to tbs and talked about how we will miss each other and I told him that I am really grateful that our friendship grew into what it is this summer. he left a little bit later, and then tay come over to say goodbye. we hung out for awhile and he helped me pack some of my clothes. then we took a drive. we ended up at some party. so we hung out there for a little while, and he finally took me home at midnight. so I went back to packing, and DUSTAN came over. I haven't seen him since the whole clint episode, but he said he wanted to come by and say goodbye. he stayed over until about 1:30. needless to say, I didn't get much packing done. so I went to sleep, and just as I was starting to get really into sleep, christian called and apologized for not coming out. he didn't need to, since I didn't think he was going to be able to come anyway. so we talked for a little bit and I think I fell asleep on the phone.

church was good today. my mom spoke about God wanting to bless His people and how arguments go up in the heavenlies, and what we need to do when that happens. then savanah and I went to an out of town chili's because we wanted to get away from people and have our last meal together. it was nice. now I'm here. finally almost finished packing and now just procrastinating. tonight jv and christian and I are supposed to go out. we'll see. I have to leave here at 4AM tomorrow morning. so I might just not sleep.

one other really good thing, and this has to do with how awesome God is:

I was really listening to God this summer, and I felt like he was telling me not to take the job at iMusicast and not to go work for the label either. I had a feeling He wanted me to do something else, but I wasn't really sure what. so I have just been praying and I really was beginning to feel like God didn't want me home at all next summer, or home for just a short while. He didn't really tell me what He wanted me to do, or where I should be, but I was already stressing. I was like, "God, seriously, it better be something awesome, because there is no way my mom would be cool with me not coming home ALL SUMMER LONG." but God has really been working on me this summer with trusting in Him for all provision and all things. so, I was stressing about whether or not to tell my mom that God had been dealing with me about not coming back home next summer. but out of the blue, she told me, "Casey, this is probably your last summer at home until at least the summer after next. I really feel like God is preparing me for you to be away next summer. just so that you know." and it was such conformation and such a relief that she was feeling the same way. so basically this is all just to say that I shouldn't have been scared to tell her in the first place what God was telling me, and also to be happy that God was even speaking to me and that I heard Him.
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Monday, August 2nd, 2004

Subject:if i ain't got you...
Time:6:19 pm.
this song has become my sentimental favorite for the summer. the remix of this song (with usher) has played at so many critical parts of my summer nights. it's one of those songs that from now on, when I hear it, will remind me of this summer, the people involved, the losses, the good times, the bad times, a million things.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define whats within and I've been
There before but that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

And some people want it all
But I don t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you yeah

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And thats the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
No one to share
No one who truly cares for me

And some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you you you

And some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you yea

And some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you yea

If I aint got you wit me baby oh ooh said
nothin in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you wit me baby
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Tuesday, July 27th, 2004

Subject:I'm sick of writing every song about you
Time:4:48 pm.
Mood: calm.
my journal has become practically all friends only stuff, but I am too lazy to get one of those cute things that TELLS you it's all friends only. basically, you're missing out if you're not my friend because you can't read all of my journal. oh well.

garrett pissed me off last night.
sacramento was fun.
I am leaving in two weeks.
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Subject:something different
Time:12:35 am.
Mood: blah.
today sucked so I decided that instead of reliving it all I will just post a journal entry on something different. something different, yet the sameCollapse )
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Friday, July 23rd, 2004

Subject:I'm seriously super broke for having worked all summer.
Time:7:57 am.
I need a job in tulsa. hmmm.
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Thursday, July 22nd, 2004

Time:10:17 am.
Mood: chipper.
five details about your appearance right now:
[x] no nail polish
[x] no makeup
[x] wrapped in a blanket
[x] hair in a ponytail
[x] hair needs to be re-highlighted

oooh you're interested, I KNOW IT!Collapse )
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Thursday, July 8th, 2004

Subject:I am so confused!
Time:9:02 am.
in other news, I have no concept of geographical location
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