oh man. these past few days and nights have been crazy as my summer is winding down. I leave for tulsa tomorrow morning, and there are for sure going to be some sparks flying tonight. but, I will recap.
friday. a ton of people came over. we had a little party, played some games, hung out. good times. garrett explained some things to me on the phone that really made me think, but I feel like we have finally come to a place of understanding on both of our parts. which is good. no hard feelings, lots of love, and things could not be better between us. as friends. which is what I wanted all along. life is good.
friday during the day I went to modesto and fresno. bought a purse, some makeup, another shawl, and I looked at shoes forever with my mom. it was a good time. and I got my sam's club card renewed, so that was cool.
anyway, after everyone left on friday night I talked to lindsay on the phone for a little bit, and I talked to josh online for a little bit. I tried to solve the problem of what apparently happened the night before in davis between kristen and isaac, but kristen ended up crying and getting a little crazy. so I kinda just talked to isaac about it and I think everything is better.
yesterday I woke up early and took my brother to work so that I could borrow his car. I ran some random errands and had a good time. I also did a ton of laundry. then I got ready for justin's funeral and took off to the high school gym.
the news was there. and so were a gazillion people. it was kind of like a high school reunion, only much much sadder. I cried for the first hour of the service. the second hour was about remembering justin, so I laughed a lot more, especially when loren spoke, since loren was justin's first friend in los banos and we all went to elementary school together. it was really nice. afterward, I didn't really stay and talk to anyone because I didn't feel like it would be appropriate to sit and catch up with everyone, and plus I needed to pack. so I'm at home packing and doing laundry when genesa comes by. what a breath of fresh air. I missed her. kyle came by too. we chatted it up for about 4 hours, watched the x games, ate, and just hung out. genesa was telling me about berkeley and how her newly acquired hippie habits. they left at about 8:45, and then christian called. he said he wanted to come over but that he didn't think he would have time to make it all the way over here. but while we were talking, jv came by. so jv and I sat around and listened to tbs and talked about how we will miss each other and I told him that I am really grateful that our friendship grew into what it is this summer. he left a little bit later, and then tay come over to say goodbye. we hung out for awhile and he helped me pack some of my clothes. then we took a drive. we ended up at some party. so we hung out there for a little while, and he finally took me home at midnight. so I went back to packing, and DUSTAN came over. I haven't seen him since the whole clint episode, but he said he wanted to come by and say goodbye. he stayed over until about 1:30. needless to say, I didn't get much packing done. so I went to sleep, and just as I was starting to get really into sleep, christian called and apologized for not coming out. he didn't need to, since I didn't think he was going to be able to come anyway. so we talked for a little bit and I think I fell asleep on the phone.
church was good today. my mom spoke about God wanting to bless His people and how arguments go up in the heavenlies, and what we need to do when that happens. then savanah and I went to an out of town chili's because we wanted to get away from people and have our last meal together. it was nice. now I'm here. finally almost finished packing and now just procrastinating. tonight jv and christian and I are supposed to go out. we'll see. I have to leave here at 4AM tomorrow morning. so I might just not sleep.
one other really good thing, and this has to do with how awesome God is:
I was really listening to God this summer, and I felt like he was telling me not to take the job at iMusicast and not to go work for the label either. I had a feeling He wanted me to do something else, but I wasn't really sure what. so I have just been praying and I really was beginning to feel like God didn't want me home at all next summer, or home for just a short while. He didn't really tell me what He wanted me to do, or where I should be, but I was already stressing. I was like, "God, seriously, it better be something awesome, because there is no way my mom would be cool with me not coming home ALL SUMMER LONG." but God has really been working on me this summer with trusting in Him for all provision and all things. so, I was stressing about whether or not to tell my mom that God had been dealing with me about not coming back home next summer. but out of the blue, she told me, "Casey, this is probably your last summer at home until at least the summer after next. I really feel like God is preparing me for you to be away next summer. just so that you know." and it was such conformation and such a relief that she was feeling the same way. so basically this is all just to say that I shouldn't have been scared to tell her in the first place what God was telling me, and also to be happy that God was even speaking to me and that I heard Him.